Today, I begin the process of trying to better assess and discover who I am. I've tried journaling and other methods of tracking my goals/tasks/dreams/thoughts. I absolutely love the idea of it but if I am being really honest with myself, I will admit that I have been using the same 1 inch thick journal since 1992, and it still has plenty of room to document my sporadic entries. So, I am going to try the blogging method.
I am a middle aged, married woman trying to figure out more of whatever "IT" is. Just when I think that I have a grip on reality and am comfortable in my own skin, I encounter information that knocks me off my foundation. I've encountered so many of these information puzzle pieces that my foundations have crumbled. This causes me to question anything and everything that I have ever learned. I then found that the tools that have soothed me for a lifetime were no longer effective. What do I do? How do I evaluate the information that I am learning? How does this information change my world and my way of being? These questions have left me in a crippling state of limbo for years, most of it from a fake fear of "what if's". Instead of fear, I want to build my foundation with gratitude.
Over the years, I have been led to many works that have expanded my knowledge and allowed me to grow into a better human. One such work is called The Hidden Messages of Water, written by a Japanese water researcher, Dr. Masaru Emoto. The book documents research that Dr. Emoto conducted around the changes in the crystal structure of water when influenced by thoughts. For example, glasses of water were labeled with the words "Love", "Hate", or "Gratitude". The water was frozen and as it crystallized, images of the were taken. After reading, really looking at, this book, I immediately realized the affects our negative self-talk would have on a body made mostly of water. to that end, this blog is to remind me to build my life with gratitude, which is in my opinion, the most beautiful crystal structure in Dr. Emoto's gallery.